Friday, June 3, 2016

Trauma Helps things..

I want to start off with a quote from Greys Anatomy "Hold up your head..enter the arena, face your enemy, fight until you can't fight anymore. Never let go and never give up. Never run and never surrender; Fight the good fight. You fight. Even when it seems inevitable...that your about to go down swinging." Shock is something that may sound like a bad thing, but we can think of it as a protection shell. Throughout life we go through our own daily struggles. A trauma happens to us in my opinion to let us know that the worse has not taken over. It shows that we are human and still have souls under our flesh. I guess it's God's way to show us that we're alive and blood still flows within our blood stream. The realist of events has the craziest way to show us how much strength that we indeed have in us. When you come across real events in  life, it comes across as painful but it can build you to be unstoppable. Sometimes we can be thrown and fall off track but take a deep breathe, stop and think of what is being done and how this can benefit and build your future. There is an old saying that God won't give you anything you can't handle. As we push our babies out, deal with that difficult task,  learn what betrayal looks like and so much more..... sometimes we can only see the ugly side of what's presented to us. Instead of thinking why is this happening to me, thinking "how will this strengthen me?" The way that we train our minds are the results we get throughout life. Take that thing you thought would break you and let it make you.


When dealing with people, let us remember we are not dealing with creatures of logic. We are dealing with creatures of emotion, creatures bustling with prejudices and motivated by pride and vanity. -Dale Carnegie

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

A Mother and A Wife

As I roam through facebook, I came across a post that blew me away. If your a mother or a wife, you know that  both can require your full attention. Jada Pinkett made a very valid statement in her interview with her daughter. After marriage and motherhood, your mental and physical body will be drained if you let life do it to you. Personally, there's been times I am positive to have my kids get their check ups and have my husband annual dental work.  Sometimes being a mother can truly feel guilty about buying yourself something as small as a pair of jeans. As mothers we throw our normalness we had before anything. Holding that in for how long can have you flip on the people you love. Jada made a huge flashback pop into my head when thinking about friends, family,husband, and mainly my kids. Have you ever heard a person or even yourself blame someone else for not getting a goal done that you needed to happen? This can happen with anyone but specifically as women we should think about an airplane going down as an example. Right? If a plane is going down, you have to put your vest and oxygen mask on first in order to help anyone else. This same rule applies to our every day living with family. Going deeper there is honestly no true way to blame anyone for not being able to go out to see that action film that everyone is talking about. Going to college should never be something any thing or person should stop you from pursuing if it benefits your future. As parents we should take care of our families but not lose ourselves in doing it. Speaking from a personal  perspective, losing yourself while catering to your family can be beautiful but also draining.
I'm not really sure what happens after the birth of the baby but we get this feeling inside of us that makes us feel like if  we go out once or twice a month that we stop qualifying as good parents.  I know that i'm not the only one that feels this way. Jada says we stop after becoming this role and blame others. We sit in the house and browse photo albums and old diploma and  your spouse enters the door and you snap while saying, "I gave up everything for you!" Secretly you live in regret and sometimes even anger. Although, is it really their fault? Probably not right?  The bible says Wive's love your husbands, husbands honor your wives. Nowhere does it say drop everything and give me your lifes goals and desires! Further we sadly even unknowingly live our lives through our children.  "You have to dance ballet for mommy because it will make mommy so happy"  "I know you don't like acting sweetie but you HAVE to do it for mommy ok?"  It happens everyday but we can avoid this. It doesn't matter if your 22 or 62 take care of yourself, so that you may be able to fully love others.

She is the creature of life, the giver of life, and the giver of abundant love, care and protection. Such are the great qualities of a mother. The bond between a mother and her child is the only real and purest bond in the world, the only true love we can ever find in our lifetime.” 
― Ama H.Vanniarachchy

Ceecee <3 

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Share Your Reason

Thinking about mindsets, what is the first thing that comes to mind?  A positive mind is something
we should be militant about but it in this world, your probably thinking .. how? There is always something on the news with negativity attached to it. I am definitely not a huge fan of this either, but it is what it is, right? So what do you do to keep yourself focused and away from all of that? A key note to having something that's a major goal is to figure out your reason why. What is it a must to have yourself focused? With a positive mindset, what would be your outcome? A lot of people think a great reason to do things is for money. That's a horrible reason for anything! Don't get me wrong, I love money as much as the next person but having that for your reason for doing anything is just not strong enough. If money is the reason for anything you won't last very long on which ever journey your playing at. If you honestly look at these millionaires photos and see their facial expressions, don't they always look so miserable? If money is your reason for anything, you will never be happy because you will never find enough. The type of why you want should come from what makes you wake up every morning. Your very reason for  leaving your bed and your children if you have them. I was in a seminar one day and the woman said "your why should be so powerful it should make you cry."  My why is  so strong that it has the ability to take my breath away! When I close my eyes I can almost touch my vision that I'm painting. My why is my children. They are my reason for everything. Every time I look at my children, I get an adrenaline that gives the energy to let me do what I need to for their future. Growing up I didn't have much. My parents got us everything we needed though, my mother would make it such a priority to get us little toys and other things we wanted but her and my dad would more than likely go without something because of it.
I DO NOT want that for myself or my kids future. With this drive, I am going to do whatever is necessary and by any means necessary to make them as comfortable as possible in their future. My why and reason for absolutely everything consists of three people and it's something I am willing to risk everything for.  If you are venturing out in this world, your why needs to be unbreakable. It must be enough to keep you past the upsets, the struggles, and the worrying about if it will work. Without a strong enough reason for doing your chosen task, at the first bump you might turn away from it. This means it will have been in vain. So my reason is my kids, you may have a different motive but make it your everything. A strong enough why will motivate your mindset to get whatever needs to be done past you and to a destination of no return.


Desire is the key to motivation, but it's determination and commitment to an unrelenting pursuit of your goal - a commitment to excellence - that will enable you to attain the success you seek.

Mario Andretti

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Napoleon Says...

The new year is coming and 2015 is making an exit. I feel like I wont be alone in saying this but I honestly felt like this year was filled with every emotion possibly felt. I can honestly say that out of all the years of living.. this year I learned the most about myself and others.  2015 beat me up, kicked me down, dragged me through the mud, lifted me up and molded me to be stronger. There were fights and hugs, tears and laughs. What has this year done for you? For me it was the last baby being almost potty trained. In my hardest times, I found out who was rowing with me in the boat and who was drilling holes in it. That was painful for me but I'm glad that it happened because sometimes when you dont know, life could be so much harder than it should be. Agree?  When your given pain and pleasure you have to appreciate both.  If you pay attention closely, there's an intense lesson from all of it. I was never crazy about school and this year is the first I was enrolled in Post University. Other than my kids it really is the best thing I experienced. I enrolled for psychology.. those who know me know that I love people. Although I get around some and wonder omg.. they have a beautiful mind and others make me wonder so much on whats going on in their mind. Learning more about the  psychology world helped me learn more about myself. I believe that everything has an answer but you to kind of dig for it.
To do that we have to be able to except it and that way we can get past whatever we where being held back from. Most people don't know how much power that they have until someone helps them clear their fog away.  Going into the new year we should all try to carry what we learned whether it be good or bad. For me I feel that there is nothing that is wasted. Sometimes you honestly have to learn how to embrace all the madness until its silence and then just maybe you could see that picture clearly. This year gave me so much and sometimes gifts come in there rarest of forms. It showed me that family is something that family doesn't always mean that you have to be together. Life is what you make of it and your family is too. So my children are the ones that I have most access to so I choose to love them harder and learn from them like I never did before. Not that I couldn't learn from them before but after having so much thrown at you, sometimes you can get sidetracked on what is suppose to matter the most. I'm sure throughout the 365 days we have you got sidetracked at least once.  
So can you see inside of your 2016? Share with me... what does it look like? If you don't like what you see.. change whatever your do it now to get a positive future. I know life can be crazy but if you can sit and give your self alone time, think about what your purpose is. Close your eyes and think about it.. put it into existence and make it happen!  I'm such a Napoleon Hill fanatic and he talks about having a definite of purpose.  It is stated in Think and Grow Rich to "Create a definite plan for carrying out your desire and begin at once, whether you are ready or not, put this into action."  Sometimes we make excuses for almost everything but next year will be something that can have the brightest outcome if we start right now! Happy New Year and 2016 will be a new beginning for all. You can do whatever you put your mind to, in 2016 only thing that can stop us is ourselves.

Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better take things as they come along with patience and equanimity.
Carl Jung

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

When Life gets Real, Look to be Realer

Sometimes, we sit in life thinking.. "I am so lucky to be so blessed or when is that little guy from "hell date" going to jump out?" Am I hitting home on this? Throughout our days and even some nights we come across these thoughts, lol I know it's not just me. What about thinking back to yesterday's you or last years you? If you had the chance would you go back and do anything different?  For example if you struggle with things in your life now, would you do anything to change you present outcome? I have to say that I go about life like a chess games. Chess can always be related to anyone's life. Checkers is a basic game that even a child can learn, but chess uses our thought process of mentally strategizing each move we make in every day.  Many days are done without planning and it can be chaotic and full of headaches. It's very rare, but any success with this order is slim to none.  With chess, you think about everything thoroughly to be able to yell CHECKMATE❗️ It can be used everywhere and with everything. Does this seem draining or actually useful? Sit back, close your eyes and think.. Can I use this at home or maybe at work? Chess gives you unlimited plan b's.  A lot of times, things we try to plan won't go our way and we get stuck. As a personal reference, depending on your gender... Try and think of yourself as a queen or king. I feel like this will give more logic and maybe even fun to your life. LOL question: who would be your bishop? How about your rook, and let's not forget pawns‼️Is your picture getting colorful yet?

CC 👸🏾

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

What is your L.O.V.E?

Why does everyone use this word? For more than a decade the word has lost its meaning to the most severe extent. Does it mean that humanity has seriously lost hope? To see women downgrading to fit in is truly a questionable act that stays in my mind. Women that have the prettiest faces seem to be hurting  the most. Great definition of no self love..This should never be so, love originally had more of a meaning. Looking in the dictionary at the word its described as an intense feeling of deep affection, a person or thing that one loves; feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone). There's so many definitions for "l.o.v.e", yet we do not know what it is! How can this be right,? this seems to make no sense. A man tells a woman "I love you",  or  "I love you" from a mother to her child,  this is a form of true love in my opinion.  But what happens when it isn't? We use that word so freely now .. Its' amazing and not in a good way. Now if you walk into a high school  you hear people saying it with no meaning behind it, what so ever. So, when thinking about the word love...what is the first thing that comes to your mind? Does it involve sex or money? Is love when someone buys you that special shiny box gift with that big pretty bow on top? How about the controlling love? "If you do what I say, then that means you love me." This one seems kind of stressful, doesn't it? I don't know about you but depending on the person, love can cost far too much and will leave you with anxiety, depression and other things you can live without. Although, love is not supposed to cost anything. Love is a feeling, an emotion, something you can not see. If the "L.O.V.E" that your experiencing has you drained a majority of the time, odds are that is NOT for you! Should your "love" mean you have to sacrifice your happiness all the time, that's probably a fraud. Does this sound about right? Love is a feeling, an emotion, something you cannot see. Love never should hurt you emotionally or physically. Love should not be described as a negative thing because it's not.  Right? The child that grows confused because the perspective of love is being abused or unfaithful or worst. When the word love comes to me.. I think the L is for the language that you and the opposition speaks in. O is for remembering the original platform in which everything started. V is or the various times you could have turned away but didn't. The letter E in love is for the intense feeling of ecstasy when knowing that it is given to you.

Love isn't something you find, love is something that finds you ~Loretta Young 

Happy Holidays.. From Me to You

The words "Happy Holidays" is getting me a little emotional this year. The thought of it has me crying my heart out. Like thinking back... what does it consist of? As a younger kid, I remember only wanting toys and running to the tree, ripping open those boxes to find clothes!! Lol there was some toys but you get the picture right? When I reached the 8th grade and found out I had hips and curves, I could care less about the toys! "Mommy, I want a pretty dress I saw in a magazine, ok? please?" I'll admit, me and my sisters were all the way spoiled growing up.. I won't even start with the dinners because my mother turned all the way up in the kitchen!! Shit, I'll pay anything for those memories now.  Becoming a mother, is the scariest thing I ever come across. Take my word for it, I look sweet but my past friend group consisted of people who might have had artificial hearts inside of them.. Lol  On a more serious note, slowly seeing shit fall apart.. I made it my business to try and keep hope alive. Lol.. Failed that mission.. See, birthdays, Thanksgivings, and Christmases mean EVERYTHING TO ME. Birthdays everybody got a cake and a song, to stop pain of having people cancel for birthdays is for me a dagger through my heart❣For Thanksgivings, every year we went in with the cooking, parents, sisters, friends that were close would come and just fool with each other. My last Thanksgiving.. I felt like I was drowning not having my family as one. Christmas as I became older would be for the kids. Times are rough now a days so yeah.. Lol .. Everyone understood. Every now and then when my mother was able to.. She would still get presents for her girls. Each time it meant the world because When she shops .. She puts her full emotion and love in it. We would still have the cooking and togetherness but the recordings would be of the kids eyes wide open getting their gifts. We're blessed with easy to please kids because anything that was wrapped up made them glow. Lol for my sons first Christmas I spent over 300$ for him only to playing with the wrapping paper! Lol cute right? It was definitely a sight to see. When my nephew saw his toys he didn't know what to get to first! Lol Ahhh .. Those looks they have had the ability to soothe even the coldest winters. Memories of my holidays could win a Grammy award. Now as a mother, and me being older.. what are the holidays really about? As I mentioned, the holidays for me was being surrounded by my family, but even that is a dream... so what now....what is it about now? Holidays of 2015 have been the realest thing that has ever happened to me.. Take my word, I smile a lot but I been through the worst. and for me 2015 was the hardest.. but on a bright side I can say that it made me the strongest. I'm not guru on the holiday subject, but I think holidays should have a meaning. The meaning for me was family. Do not misunderstand me in saying that some days my family makes me so crazy, that I could run away. In todays world, if you see a "normal" family... It might be staged. For me even seeing the madness was ok... as long as it was done together.
 So we could fight over who was cheating in monopoly or who didn't eat the last piece of chicken! I loved all of it, my family definitely had some heated moments.. but this year there was none of that. Labor days are empty and Thanksgivings are awkward and the last holiday  Christmas..which is my favorite is so painful to think about that it could raise anyones blood pressure through the roof. This Christmas season has been so teary eyed and some days I feel like I can't breathe. Now and only now.. I can see that "you don't know what lost until it's gone."  My loss is my family.. And while I love my little tribe and my husband is great but it's a different kind of love. I guess this is life's version of making me stronger. I've always had the heart of a lion for something that I love but 2015 took my heart and my soul and screamed at me to wake up❣Everything happens for a reason.. And there is a time and place for everything .. So going into this new year of 2016.... I will train for the mindset of being the example that I want to see in people. Train to make my own creation of the word family. I will set new themes for the word holidays. I will train to be new. So to those who chose to read this...

Merry Christmas  From me to you💝

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